632 - The heart-slash of grief


The Assembly of Yeola-e should be told: “Down!”

Intharas Terren
The Pages of Arko, Risae 4, 54-to-last Y.P.A.

This morning, our beloved Imperator received a letter from his so-called masters in the Yeoli Assembly calling him to task for his expert handling of the slave revolt in Temono already covered elsewhere in these Pages. In fact, they are debating whether to command him—as by Yeoli law they have the right—to grant the ringleaders of the revolt full pardons and full freedom.

This quote, from our objective article on the matter elsewhere in these Pages, bears repeating:

“This would be an utter disaster,” says Sejetzas Orman Tenae, president of the Maintainers of Assets Sentient of Arko, whose members include all the major slave owners of the Empire and innumerable minor ones. “Were it to happen, the news would be followed by a wave of fire and barbarism across the Empire such as Arko has never seen. The cities would be awash in the blood of innocent Arkan citizens. We cannot overstate the danger. We adjure the Imperator to eschew such a command if it comes, if he has any concern for the people over whom he seized power.”

No doubt Shefenkas will furnish the explanation they are demanding of him by a characteristically-detailed envisioning of what would happen throughout the Empire were he to accede to such a command. But will it fall on deaf ears? The Assembly of Yeola-e has not shown a sterling history of concern for the fate of the Empire of Arko.

Or perhaps it’s a case of simple incompetence, laced with such stupidity as to barely seem human.

How dare these mealy-mouthed ministers of the mewling mob attempt to hold He Who May Not Be Contained on a dog’s leash, and how dare they so egregiously mock justice? These vile weaklings are not fit to dust the hallowed seats they seem to spend all their time wearing through whilst plotting our Imperator’s downfall.

This is by no means their first offense. In fact the insightful observer might detect something of a pattern. First, these bucolic bureaucrats bayed at him for supposedly seeking “excessive reverence” while he was still in the process of liberating them and their vile hanging tongues. Then it was for donning his sword in their hall just after announcing the results of the fodai to invade the Empire, which he did to cogently symbolize the brutality said decision would engender. They further hounded him with an initiative (eventually defeated) to establish a body to investigate his sanity with respect to his sacking the City (which most Yeolis favoured), humanely regretting sacking the City, and deciding to undergo the Ten Tens. Our most sacred ritual of all, the central ritual of all Arkan culture, these pants-sniffers took as grounds for accusations of insanity.

Shefen-kas may be a dyed-in-the-wool, so to speak, democrat, but he's a shining example of autocratic rule at its best. Each time the barking madmen dog his heels, he answers with infinite patience and carefully measured words, the same message: “You do not know Arko. I do. So leave it to me.”

So far sufficient shreds of sense sustain that he has made that message stick in his mountainous homeland. But how long can that hold?

On behalf of my fellow Arkans, I address the following to the august Assembly members, may they cease scratching their ears with their hind legs long enough to hear me—

No, the first words, of which there are two, of which the second is “off”, that spring to mind are not suitable for a respectable institution of news dissemination, so I will forbear. I will however say this:

“Down!”

And I adjure the Imperator—surely these moronic constraints must chafe, as the shackles on your wrists once did. You undertook to set us free; perhaps when the curs of mob-rule yap the loudest, you secretly yearn to set yourself free, too?

In Yeola-e, they probably pretend it is not possible, but anyone with any wit knows that it is: Shefenkas need only to refuse to hear the call, and there is nothing the Assembly of Yeola-e could do about it, other than slink away with its tail between its legs. Who can doubt the army he led to so many victories would stand with him, if it came to that?

So I implore the Imperator: should the representatives of your rabble choose to issue this odious command: for the sake of the economy and thus the life itself of the Empire of Arko, we beg you, refuse. Say “No!” and order them back to their kennels. In fact, it might be best for all concerned if you did that even if they do not so choose. We all would sleep better in our beds without this howling from the east.

This put Assembly, my sister told me in a letter, in an uproar. Intharas hadn’t separated out those who’d made or favoured the resolution, many Servants felt, so he’d impugned Assembly entire, calling all of them dogs. Not that that was what appalled them the most, she wrote. It was Intharas’s urging me to forsake Yeola-e, and rule Arko in my own right, even if Assembly didn’t command me to pardon the slaves of Temono. The short-chainers couldn’t believe he would write that unless I was behind it somehow, even if I had just happened to mention the idea. (I certainly never had to Intharas.)

What I did was write to Assembly unbidden, swearing that I had had nothing to do with the opinion except telling Intharas that I wouldn’t provide any quotes, and that I had no plans to go rogue. Several resolutions to censure me, demand things of me, truth-drug me and so forth were tried, but none went chalk. The Pages had proved sufficiently to Yeola-e that it was free of Imperial influence.

So they went after Intharas, but I tell out of order.

The heart-slash of grief for our stream-taken child slowly gave way to a slow bleed of worry for my wife. She began on a grief-bead, sitting in one of the open Marble Palace courtyards to carve, even in pouring rain. Everyone tried to speak to her. But she stayed a ghost in human flesh. I’d wake in the dead of night and find her sitting in the dark, like me before Kaninjer seized control of my nights. Worst sign of all: she didn’t go flying much. After a half-moon, I went to him.

He gave her something, and she took it, and then he gave her the same thing higher, and she refused to take another. Alchaen was building up a large clientele in Arko; his reputation for healing torture was made on having healed me of it, and of course there are plenty of people who have suffered it in and around the City. “You recall when your own feeling was locked up, why it was?” he said to me. I thought back, and remembered the sense of being the boy at the city-gates, holding back a horde beyond number of enemies outside with just my lone shoulder. “It’s the same with her. She’s afraid it will be huge beyond imagining and unending, if she allows even a crack.” But Niku would not go to him, saying only, “I’m not crazy.” He told me I’d just have to wait.

I kept wishing I could tell her that if there’s anything life has taught me, it’s to get over one agony as fast as possible so as to be ready for the next. About a moon after Roshten’s birth, Vriah got a throwing-up fever, and nothing Kaninjer could do seemed to keep her from getting sicker. There we’d been expecting to have three children, and now it looked as if they’d be cut down to one. Her weakening only seemed to stop when Kaninjer, not knowing what else to do, stopped giving her the medicine he was most often giving her.

He was stunned and baffled, but it crashed together in my mainland-trained mind. If you spend enough time with Haians, you pick up a little of their knowledge, especially if you find it fascinating, as I do. Their medicines never have only one use. The one he’d been giving Vriah, because it best matched the sickness she had, was the same one he often gave me, because it best matched my constitution. Neither I nor Krero had ever asked him how he kept his medicine-box secure.

He tested the bottle, somehow, and it was indeed slow-poisoned. An assassin who had infiltrated the Marble Palace and could read a Haian’s notes? “No, he’d only have to know his medicines,” said Kaninjer. “You’re not that hard to peg.” We never caught him. Kaninjer refined the poisoned bottle into its own antidote, got some of the original medicine unadulterated from another Haian in the city, and Vriah was soon on the mend.

The day we discovered the truth, Niku didn’t say a word, but just walked stiffly into a parlour off the main chamber, closing the door. Soon came the sounds of things caroming and smashing off the walls. Skorsas flinched at each crash, saying, “Those are priceless antiques!” Her voice took a little longer to find, but in time the cries came too. To me they were like rain in a desert. “But we’ve solved it, the child is going to be fine,” Kaninjer said to me helplessly. “Don’t worry,” I told him. “This is as much or more about the one the stream killed.”

When she came out, her eyes fixed on me like aimed arrowheads. She strode to me, grabbed me by the collar and banged me up against a pillar. “I don’t care if I’m a stranger to almost everyone there,” she hissed, her two fists hard under my chin. “You are going to arrange for me and the children you and I both love to live in Vae Arahi, and get us out of this stinking cesspit.”

“I surrender and beg mercy,” I said. “Good idea, love.” She had everyone ready to take off in the same time as it took me to write a pigeon note home to tell them to expect her, and they were gone before cliff-sunset.

Hat tip to Michael S.S. Thedford for role-playing Intharas and helping write the editorial.

Same day I posted this chapter I nominated capriox for a Rose & Bay Award for Best Patron, hence some of the comments below.





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I kept wishing I could tell

I kept wishing I could tell her that if there’s anything life has taught me, it’s to get over one agony as fast as possible so as to be ready for the next.

Oh, for the love of All-Spirit, Chevenga! You still just don't get it, do you?

I've always referred to this

...as his "Mr. Positive" line.

But you simply can't say that

But you simply can't say that to the mother of your child, especially when she has just lost a child in the way Niku has.

This is where I think another benefit of chiravesa might kick in - Chevenga grieved for the death of Rojhai, but he doesn't blame himself, and his culture doesn't blame him. He doesn't think, "If only I hadn't insisted on the stream test -" while Niku has got to be thinking, "This is all my fault. I should have protected my baby from that barbarian and his insane customs." She's got to be feeling, on her side, the cultural weight of you just don't do that to a baby in addition to the normal grief of a parent losing a child.

Chevenga understands a lot about people, but this is one case where he's really blind to what's going on. He is thinking about how Niku should deal with her grief in the context of a Yeoli losing a child this way; not understanding that there is so much more beneath the surface.

And I think it's a tribute to the strength of your character creation that I want to sit here and argue so strongly about hoe one fictional character is treating another.

He doesn't actually say it

...just wishes he could, because that approach has worked for him in the past with the many losses of his own. And I agree with him that you are better off getting through grief as fast as you can by letting it out and getting support rather than holding it in. That's what he's talking about, not minimizing it.

This is making me realize, I owe you an email...!

Thanks for the compliment re character creation. I actually found a cool character development exercise while poking around on cap's website, check it out: 30 questions in 30 days. I might do a blogpost about it.

He doesn't actually say it to

He doesn't actually say it to Niku, correct, but he wants to, if that makes any sense.

And yes, usually the best way to get through grief is to let it run its course - but what support does Niku think she can find? Chevenga is surrounded by supporters - other barbarian Yeolis who also murder their children (this being what I imagine is going through Niku's mind) - but who can she go to in her grief?

I like Niku, and as I've said elsewhere, the additional background that's coming out for her is making me understand and like her more, but usually I'm on Chevenga's side. It's unusual for me to want to argue so strongly for Niku that Chevenga is the one who seems to be acting unfairly!

Re: character development - that's an interesting approach. As one of those crazy people who do NaNoWriMo semi-regularly, I may just have to bookmark that.

Heh, I owe you some more research - I've had the time to look up a few of the things we've discussed, but not all. I remember when I was younger, seldom feeling like I hadn't been able to do all I wanted to do in a day - where does the time go as we get older?!

Oh, he has a big blind spot

...no argument there.

But who can Niku go to? Bunches of people! There are lots of aNiah around (that is the correct spelling, btw - Chevenga's misspelling is an idiosyncrasy of Yeoli and himself) such as Baska, Sijurai, Sawas, Ada, etc., some of them very close friends of hers. Though I doubt she'd go to Skorsas, she could go to Kallijas; Arkans think the stream-test is just as barbaric as aNiah do. ("Why's he all over us for purification?") Ditto Haians: she could talk to Kaninjer and Alchaen. Alchaen in particular would be an excellent source of support.

And it's really her choice not to go to Yeolis; it's not as if they feel nothing and don't know how to be supportive. There are two who are handy who didn't suffer and don't do the stream-test except with Chevenga's kids: Shaina and Etana.

Haians - "I'm not

Haians - "I'm not crazy!"

Other aNiah - "Why did you let him murder your child?"

I don't think she'd go to Kallijas for the same reason she wouldn't go to Skorsas - she may like Kallijas better than she likes Skorsas, but he's still her rival for Chevenga.

Other Yeolis - grief is not logical. Shaina and Etana may only do the stream-test with Chevenga's kids, but they still do it. You wrote a few posts back about Chevenga getting drunk with other Yeolis who'd lost children to the stream - I could not imagine turning in grief to a people so inured to losing their children this way that they have such a formalized way of recognizing it; a club, if you will, of parents who have stood there and watched their children die.

I dunno, this is just the way it looks to me as a reader, seeing Niku as being boxed in. She is not blameless, by far - I think what I'm really reacting to is what appears to be sheer cluelessness on Chevenga's part. Of course, this sets the stage for certain parts of ak to have more dramatic impact...

Heya, Shel

Kallijas and Skorsas are not rivals for Chevenga in a poly relationship, at least not in any long term group marriage is going to work.

aNiah and Yeolis regularly have poly relationships so the big problem is really their Arkan-ness.

That's not the impression I

That's not the impression I get. The feeling I get is that Niku feels that Kallijas and Skorsas are rivals. Doesn't have anything to do with a poly relationship, and everything to do with Niku. Not being The Author, obviously, I don't know for sure, but this is how Niku's character comes across to me in the text.

You mean rivals to her

...rather than rivals to each other? A fault of the language, I guess, but the sentence "Niku feels that Kallijas and Skorsas are rivals" doesn't make it clear which you mean.

A fine conclusion

...to our debate.

A.N. comment

*falls over* Oh, but, wha...?

Clearly you need an explanation.

I quote from my nomination summary:

The most generous of my patrons contribute both financially and creatively, and that is the case with cap. As well as sending me donations, she comments all the time, participates in group role-plays, freely shares info on her areas of expertise and writes positive reviews. The latest is a video she has in the works for a comedic song written by another reader, as well as lengthy consultations with me on how to promote my work, drawing from her knowledge as a major in communications. She's even adopted one of my characters. Cap rocks!

*high-fives Karen*

Good call. She totally deserves it.

Yes

... indeedy do!

*high-fives V*

Of course she does.

=P to you all

hrmph. Took care of nominating PiA and EC, btw. You and Shirley certainly both deserve it.

Thanks cap!

Updating the nominee badge.

*blushes like mad*

*blushes like mad*

No blushes!

You deserve nomination and commendation both. If I may quote several healers to a certain curly-haired person... "Accept this. Take it in. Let it happen!"

It's true, my healers have said that.

Oh... were you talking about some other curly-haired person?

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